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Singapore Spirit
By peace | August 5, 2008
It is SO DIFFICULT, so difficult to be a christian. Singapore is so hot. I am always so hot. The heat is killing me. How can I survive without air-con? It is so hard to sleep without air-con.
Not working, no CPF, no fixed income, but surviving on Google Ads. He said earning money is so easy. I never say anything is easy at all. But how long has he been on the internet, how long had he tried, and what did he do in the end? Over. Fine, start anew…. never mind, money can always be earned…..
BUT what is a FAMILY? WHAT is husband and wife? What is the ROLE of each? Must there be a CLEAR LINE or both husband and wife do their own things and not care about each other and the welfare of the family (the kids)?
That is very selfish. A National Serviceman, TRAINED in the army, TRAINED in the airforce (The sky’s the limit), but what exemplary role do they have when AT HOME? He told me, one day at Republic Polytechnic,”Why people behave differently once they are out of the schoool?” Over at Republic Polytechnic, students put back their trays (Plates, cups, etc) after finishing their meals. In school, the students don’t litter OR is it SCARED to litter. But everywhere I see litter in Singapore nowadays, and yet we are called “LITTER FREE SINGAPORE”.
It is so sad, so sad how selfish and MONEY-CENTRED people are. THEY valued MONEY MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE. MONEY BEFORE FAMILY. MONEY before KINS. I am very sad.
IF only I am capable of more things. If only I am a MAN. IF only I am TALL enough. I can do lots of things. But I am a WOMAN. I am not as tall as the man. I did not study engineering. People who KNOW are LAZY, people who don’t know, want so much to do what they want, but don’t have the knowledge. Crazy world, everything upside down.
That is why, we need to share. But how to? We are living on loans. If we returned the banks with the money, we are bankrupt. He had too much loans. I am not so selfish, thinking that his business is not my business. But did he think like that? This is MAN, selfish MAN. What use is it for MAN TO GO NATIONAL SERVICE? Defend the country in such a sense?
National Service? I am very sad, what National Service? My aircon is National Aircon. My husband went for National Service. I wanted to join Government Service. I wanted to Serve. I wanted to be a nurse. I wanted to be a police. I wanted to be a air force personnel. I wanted to be a teacher. But I end up with nothing. I am fulfilling his dream. I worked as property agent, I worked as financial adviser, which is all not my interest. WHY?
Now, I merely wanted his help, to service the aircon. And yet he is reluctant. Months after months he postponed, he delayed. I washed the filter myself. I sprayed with Jackie 3-in-1 air con cleaner. I know my air con very well. It is far overdue to have a proper wash. And this instant cleaner is no longer effective. He would bang the table, throw things around if I asked him to wash the aircon for me. What can he do? He is tall, he is smart, and he is unwilling to HELP always. If I am working, I have a regular income, and if he is rich, I would have asked the man to come servicing. But since he knows, it saved all the money. But HE DON’t CARE.
This is my problem! I am the troublesome one. Woman is all trouble. MAN, MAN YOU ARE NO TROUBLE, you don’t have menstruation, you don’t even need to go through pregnancy and you don’t even have to give birth. You don’t even know what is PAIN. A little bit of things and he is so scared, and screamed for pain. DID I?
What sort of sacrifice had he ever done to the family if he ever know what is a family? Inheriting all the bad traits of his father. This is my fate. I accept my fate. In so doing, I saw GOD, I knew the one true GOD, and see the real HUMAN FACE, the many changing face and HYPOCRITES of human being. So what if you are tall, you have long bird or short bird does not matter, you have a good heart would far outweigh your intelligence and your stature.
Singapore spirit, celebrate Singapore Spirit. I thought I found bliss, I thought I was happy. I tried, acting like a clown, to make everybody happy, but it was my own wishful part. Who would ever sacrifice for you, little woman? You make this choice long time ago, and it is a one time commitment with no turning back. Good and bad you have to accept. Change yourself and accept your fate, who ask you to be so dumb, so foolish and be chosen to be the one?
How many more people are more unfortunate than you? Here you are, crying over comfort, crying over love when you have a shelter over your head, when you have enough to eat and drink, when you have clothes to wear. Don’t blame anyone, little woman, you are old enough already, be strong, you must know that MAN cannot be relied on, but only to TRUST GOD, who have better plans for you….
Pain, Pain and suffering, sorrows and grief, let me see the true colours of MAN. Deceitful MAN and woman alike. Immoral woman who sleep with married man. Ugly world.
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